Why Do I Commemorate my Father?
I am sure that many are silently asking themselves why I choose to commemorate my father on the anniversary ofContinue Reading
My Side of Suicide and Addiction
finding strength & joy after losing loved ones to suicide and addiction
I am sure that many are silently asking themselves why I choose to commemorate my father on the anniversary ofContinue Reading
9 months 20-something days after losing my baby sister she finally gave me the push, literally, that I needed to begin living life again. For me, myself and I.
Because of You – An Ode to My Father…..Reflecting his upcoming Deathiversary.
While I will never go around with my head hanging low, sulking, tell people how badly I have it – I must say that 2016 is not one that I want to replay nor would I wish anyone to step in my shoes and walk through.
I have a couple of topics ready to post, but because its almost Thanksgiving, I thought that I would switch it up for a couple of posts.
The reason that I chose to share some of my favorite memories about my father first is because earlier this week a friend that is a member of the same Golf Course as myself lost his father, unexpectedly.
What is there not to be angry about? My father has left us. I feel hurt and that manifests itself into anger. As human beings, we have a tendency to look for someone to blame. We usually do this in our anger because we’re trying to make sense of what has happened, trying to understand why our loved one has left us.
When a loved one dies, the pain is unbearable; losing a loved one to suicide leaves you, the surviving loved one, questioning yourself, blaming yourself, blaming others……the truth is, the thoughts, feelings & tears will come when least expected. You will get through this, it will get a little easier; but you will never quite fully heal. Grief Changes You.
I’ve been living with loss by suicide for over 25 years. Loss with no closure. The pain is less on some days than on others. I refuse to allow people to give me sympathy or show me pity; I’ve heard it all. I would rather have someone genuinely tell me “I know how you are feeling, I’ve been where you are.”







