Reflecting on 2017
As most do, I have been reflecting on the past year. It has been a tearful reflection. The majority ofContinue Reading
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Navigating through Year 2
My grief journey has been a painful one; I compare the pain of that first year to an invasive surgery without any anesthesia. I hurt more than I ever thought humanly possible. I found myself paralyzed by grief for a long time.
A Letter to My Sister
Ang,
I could write for hours, I’ll attempt to keep my note today simple & to the point. I miss you. We hurt. I hurt. My pain is unbearable, but I mask it pretty well. I cry for you every single day. You should be here. Your ugly disease shouldn’t have lead you down the path of self destruction. You suffered. Your kids suffered. Mom suffered. Tom suffered. I suffered. My girls suffered. Our family suffered. Your friends suffered. Acquaintances suffered. I carry the hurt that you felt, the pain that you had – emotionally, mentally and physically. Oh, how I wish I could have taken that away from my baby sister. That’s what we do as big sisters, huh? But I couldn’t.
A Sign from my Sister….
9 months 20-something days after losing my baby sister she finally gave me the push, literally, that I needed to begin living life again. For me, myself and I.
Livin’ Life & Makin’ Memories
“Dance. Smile. Giggle. Marvel. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. WISH. BELIEVE. Most of all, enjoy every moment of the journey, and appreciateContinue Reading
Anxiety, I Didn’t Choose You
Wish I had known……..that anxiety was going to rear it’s ugly head this far into my grief journey. Since losingContinue Reading
Reflecting on 2016 – The Good, The Bad & The Ugly
While I will never go around with my head hanging low, sulking, tell people how badly I have it – I must say that 2016 is not one that I want to replay nor would I wish anyone to step in my shoes and walk through.
Grief – It Comes In Waves
Have you ever been trapped in the middle of a typhoon? Or a hurricane? –ya, me neither. But, I canContinue Reading
My Side of Suicide and Addiction 