My Side of Suicide and Addiction
finding strength & joy after losing loved ones to suicide and addiction
My grief journey has been a painful one; I compare the pain of that first year to an invasive surgery without any anesthesia. I hurt more than I ever thought humanly possible. I found myself paralyzed by grief for a long time.
“Dance. Smile. Giggle. Marvel. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. WISH. BELIEVE. Most of all, enjoy every moment of the journey, and appreciateContinue Reading
Wish I had known……..that anxiety was going to rear it’s ugly head this far into my grief journey. Since losingContinue Reading
While I will never go around with my head hanging low, sulking, tell people how badly I have it – I must say that 2016 is not one that I want to replay nor would I wish anyone to step in my shoes and walk through.
Because I could write a page a day for the next year on these special people; I’m going to share a bullet list of people & things that I reflect through the year & the new people in my life that I’ve been grateful enough to meet on the road of grief I’ve faced and in every day.
I have a couple of topics ready to post, but because its almost Thanksgiving, I thought that I would switch it up for a couple of posts.
The reason that I chose to share some of my favorite memories about my father first is because earlier this week a friend that is a member of the same Golf Course as myself lost his father, unexpectedly.
I’ve never been one to keep up with new songs being released. I’m one of those people that can listen toContinue Reading
Did you know that nearly 23 million Americans—almost one in 10—are addicted to alcohol or other drugs?
After Ang passed I wrote a letter to a friend (basically journal writing), giving brief examples of the Roller Coaster Ride that I’d been on…..I will begin sharing as time allows.
Ang & I have alcoholism/addiction on both sides of our family. The odds were against us. Our father, grandmother, great-grandfather and an Aunt & Uncle. So far, I’m beating the odds and that’s what I plan to do – I will not let the demon get me.
The service was beautiful & the entire FH staff was exceptional. Every question that I asked, I received a prompt answer, things were handled efficiently, and actually being at the Funeral Home, I found oddly comforting. I found myself subconsciously thinking that “this is how a service for a loved one is supposed to feel — comforting”.
When a loved one dies, the pain is unbearable; losing a loved one to suicide leaves you, the surviving loved one, questioning yourself, blaming yourself, blaming others……the truth is, the thoughts, feelings & tears will come when least expected. You will get through this, it will get a little easier; but you will never quite fully heal. Grief Changes You.
My Side of Suicide and Addiction