Grief Thankful

My Father, My Hero

I was my dad’s little girl, and he was my hero. He is my hero. No matter what.

I was my dad’s little girl, and he was my hero.  He is my hero. No matter what.  **When my step-mom, Sharon, read her eulogy at my Dad’s Service she stated:  “Your Dad loved you and 498be7bd48eea226c1b94fcc6b7447a5worshiped the ground you walked on” – I’ve never doubted her words**

From the moment I can remember Dad had “Hero Status”.  In my eyes, he was “larger than life”. At first he was my hero because I wanted him to be. Hero isn’t a status a Dad has to earn; a dad simply has to maintain his hero status.

Regardless how dads feel, daughters still think that they’re terrific. How a dad treats his daughter sets the tone for so many other relationships in her life. Every boy or man she meets will automatically be measured against her dad, and that relationship. He is her ultimate standard and role model for manhooscreen-shot-2016-02-18-at-9-53-19-pm-700x700d.

My dad sacrificed for me. For a Daughter, getting love from her dad is a huge thing; I will never doubt how much he loves me.  **Do I hurt? Am I angry? Do I cry? Do I question? You bet. But, that doesn’t change how I feel and how he feels – This is Grief**

This was my father’s favorite song; it is obviously very special to me. Every time I hear it, memories of life with him and memories of his funeral flood back to me.   xoxo

Wind Beneath My Wings……

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
To never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that’s your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
While you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you’re my hero,
And everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
But I’ve got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you’re my hero?
You’re everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you’re my hero?
You’re everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings,
’cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
So high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
Thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

 

 

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About Michelle

I am a survivor. I have lived to tell my story; one that I have had a hard time sharing. I have lost 4 members of my family to suicide (one being my father when I was 16), and I lost my only sister recently to addiction. I am 44, and am here to tell and hopefully help people that are where I have been learn that they are not alone and there are people that want to walk them through their journey of grief; real life people - not someone who only has the education, with no real-life experiences to be empathetic to our pain and support us, genuinely. It is a tragedy when anyone passes, especially the ones that are so dear to our hearts. Losing someone to suicide is by far the most traumatizing, tragic and painful experience anyone will face; addiction holds a very close 2nd; we, the survivors, feel lost because there is nothing we could have done for our loved ones in either situation. Suicide has left me with no closure, unbearable grief, questions, guilt, helplessness, denial, anger, feeling isolated, resentment, etc. Losing my sister recently has resurfaced all of the feelings that I had endured and still endure due to the suicides that I've experienced. I describe the past 6 years attempting to save my sister from her addiction as a "Roller Coaster Ride". I truly believe that addiction is a family disease; my sister used and ultimately lost her life; but our entire family suffered and is now left to deal with the grief and questions. I've been broken by these life experiences; I am blessed that I've remained true to my faith and have allowed myself to be guided through the pain of this 25 year journey. It is now my turn to help others by sharing my story, the truth about suicide grief, and addiction grief; straight from my heart.

2 comments on “My Father, My Hero

  1. Ginger Wolffis's avatar
    Ginger Wolffis

    Dear Michelle,
    Watching the video of B. Midler singing, Wind Beneath My Wings, seeing the two little girls . . . Thinking of you & Angie brought tears to my eyes.
    You have every reason to think of your loving father as your hero!
    You are an inspiration!
    Blessings,
    Ginger

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  2. gingerwolffis@aol.com's avatar
    gingerwolffis@aol.com

    Thank you, Michelle

    I posted a response.

    Love you! Ginger

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