loved one – My Side of Suicide and Addiction

by Michelle April 18, 2017 5

A Letter to My Sister

Ang,

I could write for hours, I’ll attempt to keep my note today simple & to the point. I miss you. We hurt. I hurt. My pain is unbearable, but I mask it pretty well. I cry for you every single day. You should be here. Your ugly disease shouldn’t have lead you down the path of self destruction. You suffered. Your kids suffered. Mom suffered. Tom suffered. I suffered. My girls suffered. Our family suffered. Your friends suffered. Acquaintances suffered. I carry the hurt that you felt, the pain that you had – emotionally, mentally and physically. Oh, how I wish I could have taken that away from my baby sister. That’s what we do as big sisters, huh? But I couldn’t.

by Michelle February 18, 2017 0

Grief Suicide

Ten Thousand Words

Ten Thousand Words – The song is mellow and gives off a comforting vibe. It keeps me coming back, reminiscing, and piecing together so many of the unanswered questions that come with suicide and addiction.

by Michelle October 24, 2016 0

Suicide

Of Course I’m Angry

What is there not to be angry about? My father has left us. I feel hurt and that manifests itself into anger. As human beings, we have a tendency to look for someone to blame. We usually do this in our anger because we’re trying to make sense of what has happened, trying to understand why our loved one has left us.

by Michelle October 8, 2016 0

Suicide

connect.support.listen.grieve.suicide. addiction.

I’ve been living with loss by suicide for over 25 years. Loss with no closure. The pain is less on some days than on others. I refuse to allow people to give me sympathy or show me pity; I’ve heard it all. I would rather have someone genuinely tell me “I know how you are feeling, I’ve been where you are.”